I’ve been taking pictures everyday of my weight loss (a project that I’m really excited about putting together at the end of this year). As I was going through all of them, I was shocked at how much I’ve changed. When I look in the mirror, I swear I don’t see it. I sometimes walk by, take a glance, and thought I saw something, but I don’t.
It’s like my brain can’t catch up with reality.
I’m thankful that I wasn’t selfish with my success with this whole thing, and that I’m documenting it from start to finish. Even if I lothe the before pictures, I’m going to love the afters. The memories, sweat, and tears are always going to remind me that I worked hard for something I never thought I was going to achieve. I’m on my way.
Today at the gym, Jen and I were talking about how sometimes those people that brought you down – the guy that said he wouldn’t date you because you weren’t as skinny as is ex girlfriend, or that PE teacher who was kind of a d-bag and condescending to you in middle school can push you through a workout, and make you feel like you need to use them to conquer the world to show them that you’re better than what they expected you to be. We kind of used that to get through our workout today (which I should post, because it was killer!) but it made me think of all of those things I won’t miss about being fat, and all of those things that I hope will go away with the weight I’m losing. I’m enjoying everything about this process, and maybe it’ll help someone who feels like they’re stuck where I am. I like to be self-depricating sometimes, it helps me get through it, and I think it makes me more human, because I know I’m not the only one who thinks this way. Either way, I like to look back on this kind of stuff and say “God, you’re an idiot,” but here goes nothing.
Things I won’t miss about being fat:
-Not being able to cross your legs when you’re wearing a dress. I feel like there’s nothing sexier than just being able to cross your legs, and look super hot, and sophisticated. I’ve never been able to do it. My legs are like tree trunks, but I had my first taste of the leg cross on Sunday. It was glorious, and I didn’t have to sit so awkwardly.
-Being called “cute,” there’s absolutely nothing that I hate more than this. Gorgeous, beautiful, lovely, whatever, but cute..gag, I hate it.
-The “shorts ride-up” if you have thick legs of any sort, you’re very aware of the shorts ride up. You just can’t help it when your thighs get close to each other. Can’t wait for that to go away.
-“Shirley” Katie and I always joke about shirley. If you have boobs then you’ve encountered her. She’s the chub between your boobs and your armpit, it kills everything from tank, and tubetop wearing, to the always so adorable strapless dress. I can’t wait until she’s gone.
-Chubby cheeks! I honestly don’t think they’re going to go away. I’ve had chubby cheeks since I was a kid. I also have a dimple. I hate it, but I think it’s going to remain too.
-A horrible dating life. Getting skinny doesn’t fix it all, but it makes it better, yeah?
-Annnnd, 5x per week gym visits. When I get into my “maintenance” phase, I’ll be cutting it down to 2-3 times per week. I’ll be kicking my ass on those days, but I’m not going to have to find the energy to go so often. I love the gym, but I don’t want to spend so much time there (even though I know it’s necessary).
I don’t think this list is the end-all-be-all, but I do think that having these things to look forward to are just another way to laugh, and more things to talk myself into gym days, or putting down the Girl Scout Cookies. I’m working hard for little goals like that, but I’m working really to have overall wellness. I’m doing so great in every aspect of my life, and there’s no reason I can’t work just as hard at this, and be just as awesome at it.
There are lots of things that I won’t miss about being fat, but there are more things that I’ll make myself enjoy about being healthy.
PS – Jen and I did this workout as follows. It was a KILLER!
Stretch and warmup:
3 Minute walk
3 Minute Jog (4.5. MPH)
1 Minute Sprint (6.5-7 MPH)
1 Minute Jog (5.0 MPH)
1 Minute Sprint (7-7.5 MPH)
Hop off for 1 minute
5 minute cool down.
3 Sets of Calf Raises
3 Sets of the leg press
3 Sets of the Reverse Leg Press
1 Set of this thing that I hate that kills your glutes (IDK what it’s called)
20 seconds of each exercise, (5 sets), rest in between
(repeat those, 5 times, for 20 seconds each time.
Stretch, and you’re done!
It takes about an hour and a half to get through it. It seems easy when you look at it on the screen, but it was pretty redic. I’m pretty sure I’ll be on the verge of death in the morning from being so sore.