Week 20: Wait, What?

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Ho.Ly.MOLEY.

I’m at week 20. Me, Mila Clarke, I’ve been physically active for 20 straight weeks?

You’re joking me.

This is what I look like 20 weeks in ( I really need a full body photo again- I just don’t have the “resources”: 

 

I’ve had some terrible weeks in between. Not every week has been golden. One week, I drank with my friends (and I was intensely scared to face the scale the next morning- I might’ve even ignored it). Lately I haven’t been getting a great amount of sleep, so I just haven’t been dropping weight like I’ve wanted to. I’ve lost 17.5 pounds, which puts me 2.5 pounds shy of my second goal. I had pasta for dinner tonight – maybe not the wisest choice, but I learned from each mistake I make, and after 20 weeks, I feel like I really have come a long way from where I was. I don’t take excuses from myself anymore, and I just do what I have to.

It’s weird how much I’m not myself.

I’ve also been video blogging. I meant to do it each week, but somehow, I got lost between weeks 1 and 19. I watched the first one and the change is so interesting. I was so scared the first week, and apprehensive about all of this. I immediately said that I thought I would fail, instead of being open to the possibility that maybe I would do just fine. I was afraid that my friends and family wouldn’t support me, and that being around them would always be difficult because of my desire to be able to count every calorie I ingested, and their desire to be free to do whatever they want. I actually give them a lot of credit. They’ve all been so respectful, and helpful, and I couldn’t ask for a better support system. It’s insane to me how I threw out every excuse in the book of why I couldn’t do this, never once letting myself just do it.

Hey, Nike.

So at 20 weeks, I’m not as shake-y as I was on the first day I started. I’ve learned to embrace what I want to do, because it’s honestly now, or never. All of the changes that I’ve made have worked. I don’t miss candy, I can eat sweet things, and decadent things, but I’m vigilant with my diet and my workouts. It’s happening slowly, because I still want to enjoy life, but it’s happening nonetheless, and I’m proud of that.

I want to enjoy my hotness before my 20’s are  over. I’ve got 8 years, but the sooner the better.

 

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Mila Clarke Buckley
Mila Clarke Buckley

Mila is the author of Hangry Woman and a person with type 2 diabetes, trying to navigate the world of food, while also sharing positive representations of people living with type 2 diabetes.

She lives in Texas with her Husband, Bryan, and her pups, Lily and Cooper. She loves to talk to her readers, so find her on social media and say hello!

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