I can’t wait to make a collage like this again.
These three things in themselves could be separate entries, but interestingly, they’ve all been things I’ve dealt with this week.
Something happened. Something weird happened. It’s like the stars aligned and others started gaining more interest in my blog. It lead to more questions like, “What is PCOS exactly?” and “Why do you have these huge ups and downs?” I just wanted to shut down and say “I guess I’m not like everyone else (now can you leave me alone? I’m only thinking about it constantly!!!).” Explaining PCOS is this thing that I rarely want to do. I just don’t like it. It
feels is personal, and it’s hard to explain if you don’t just live with it. Recently, someone else I know talked to me about their struggle with PCOS, and it was the best thing. It was cool for someone to understand the insanity, and the annoyances that come with having PCOS. Someone besides my doctor who is rarely helpful (but that’s another story – not for today).
That up was brought way, way down.. Working in an office is wonderful – the camaraderie, learning how to solve different problems, and knowing this large group of people who you see day in and day out, but if you’re trying to exhibit any type of self control, it doesn’t work in an office. I love sweets – (that’s a huge surprise to NO ONE), and it takes me a great deal of strength to politely decline (typically, I want to grab whatever you have, and run away with it.). This week has been the week of sweets, and I’ve tried my hardest to politely decline. I fell flat on my face on Monday, did much better (with some cravings) on Tuesday, and I’ve actually be really great today. I have to try really hard, much harder than I had before. Saying no to birthday celebrations in the office is going to be a bummer, but I’ll be a better woman for it.
That brings me to my last update this week, the SIX MONTH DietBet I’m a part of. I decided that being a bride is great motivation to lose weight, but money is better. A co-worker and I entered into a DietBet where the pot is over $150,000, and it lasts for 6 months, so I really have to be in it to win it. I have to lose 10% of my body weight in 6 months, which feel like a daunting task. It feels lofty, and hard. I know I have to work for it, but I’m so in. Since I got my spin bike, I’ve been working out hard every other day, and doing Yoga on the in-betweens. My eating is what needs work, but I’m excited to laser focus my attention for the next 6 months. My one complaint about when the new year comes around is ALWAYS that if I worked harder, I could have been in a different place. I never want to feel that way again. We’ll see what happens in six months.