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The scariest, most open VLOG I’ve ever posted.

The scariest, most open VLOG I’ve ever posted.

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All weekend I thought about how I wanted to tackle this post and why I was doing it. It was hard, and everything in me says not to post it, but I decided to go against everything I think, because I think this is a healthy process for me.

It will be three months in August that I went to the doctor, found out I was diabetic, and had to change every single thing about my eating, and workout habits. I had already started working out in March, but my eating wasn’t doing me any favors.

For three months, I’ve worked my ass off. I have some really tough days – ones where I don’t feel well, or I’m not sure if I can even get out of bed in the morning.

But I decided that accountability is the way to my heart. When I see pictures of myself, or film my videos, I have this internal reaction like “that’s not what I thought I looked like,” or “I hate this.” It’s such an unhealthy way of looking at myself. I know it too – and you can go back and read the blogs I used to write all the way back to 2009, I’ve changed so much.

But that was the point of this video. A cliff dive for me. Showing my progress in a way that makes me uncomfortable, a way that makes me cringe, a way that makes me SCARED. It’s all a part of the process. My process.

I will learn over time how to appreciate myself. I will learn how to love my body. It has been a rough go for a long time, but now I have a better reason to do it.

This VLOG was absolutely SO uncomfortable for me. Having to edit it even made me tense. You can listen to the reasons as I talk about it in the beginning, but jump to 4:04 to see all of my side-by-side comparisons.

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Mila is the author of Hangry Woman and a type 2 diabetic, trying to navigate her new world. She lives in Texas with her Husband, Bryan, and her pup, Lily. She loves to talk to her readers, so find her on social media and say hello!

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